Tentatively moving forward

We had a conversation, R and I.
What to do about the adoption thing?
It all seems like a huge mountain to climb, with absolutely no guarantees that you will reach the summit, and every chance the failure to do so could push us over the edge.

BUT.

What if ....adoption was an easy process?
What if .....we just had to fill in a form with our names and address and in due course get our adopted toddler?
Would we do it?
Yes, of course.
And we UNDERSTAND why there have to be all these hoops.
They wouldn't know just from a simple form if we are nice people (which we are) or axe murderers (which we aren't).

SO
We will go through the process.
We always have the caveat - if it gets too much, we can stop.

So I phoned the department who had interviewed us.
OMG - they said they REALLY liked us.
They were about to call us to 'kind of headhunt' us, as we hadn't contacted them immediately.
[Do you know - my confidence has been so low that I got off the phone and CRIED because it's the first time anyone 'external' has been positive about my prospects as a parent (or, to be frank, professionally) for AGES.]
Suddenly I feel there may be some hope out there.

Next appointment with Social Services - 16th October.
Let the vetting process begin.
Am I afraid?
Miaow.